Oh my. I submitted something. I hope no one had a heart attack.

hell yes. i feel like i can breathe now, even though i have a ton of work to do (sigh). but i don't have any more classes until wednesday and that makes me happy. practically giddy. i get to pet my cat and see my family and sleep and breathe fall air and and be happy. and call people and bug them with my cell-o-phone. and draw i hope. i have been doodling more but just stupid little things on post-it notes that you will never see here that make me happy and keep me sane.

practically giddy, but also dead tired. mmm... sleep now.

was a really fun book of poems
accurately describes my head right now

this week has been awesome and got me back into a good frame of mind. it probably has something to do with getting out of the house at last. the house holds comfort and content, but only for so long (part of the reason for me being at the house so long is the i'm too chickenshit to call anyone, yes it is my own fault and i am aware of that). i had art camp this week. yaaay. there it is about fun and doing and willingness, not the final product, and i think i really needed a reminder of that. i was going to say i'll update in the morning but it's morning already so i'll do that after this post~
after camp, i've been working in my stepfather's office. getting paid more than minimum wage because their other help is so slow :grin: granted, it's not for long periods of time -just from the end of camp until closing- but it's something different and i get to be doing something useful i've stickered things and filed and entered multiple types of orders and done the mailing and stuffed envelopes and sent emails -i like doing things where you see the accomplishment, and no, i haven't had anything this close to being a real job before lol
i'm at happy point and feeling good about life, yay!

um apology for inbox spam but i feel like fleshing out my gallery
like repentence for not updating like ever. :guilty:

SO CLOSE.
9 more days.
(3 more of school, 2 more with weekend/graduation, 4 with exams)

I have:
completed my last new history reading
handed in my last math journal
handed in my last chem lab
ect, ect, ect, ...for this year.

I still need to:
finish a stupid chem in the news paper
paint that thing for art class that is hard to describe by friday
...study for and take exams.

still, it is close.
a month ago, i did not want sophomore year to end.
now, the end could not come fast enough.

I spent 20 minutes today flicking golden raisins out of my friends second story window.
It was the most amusing thing I did today.
ahahahahahahaha.
:'D
i am SO lame.
(srsly though guys you should try it. it is super fun)

i have been listening to the new Modest Mouse cd, We Were Dead Before The Ship Even Sank, non-stop. i really like it. it makes me happy.

oh, and La Belle Lucie is the best solitare game ever.